To my dear OWN,REAL BROTHER :
what else can i do other than persuade-g? i feel so hopeless.
i cant even persuade my OWN brother to continue to join band instead of rugby.
im blame myself. he say i force-d him to join band. but did i?
i ask-d myself often. my father said to him,"if your sis force-d you,why did you say you like band?".
ilovedad man. he help-d me. and to my brother,who wont be read-g this.
you want join whatever cca,go ahead. you'll just miss th fun and torture i went thru before.
every decision you make,is gonna impact you somehow.
its your life,i wont interfere anymore. i wont get angry for th reason that you're quit-g.
but angry for th reason that im a bad sister and a bad influence. :x
i hate this. just go do whatever you want. i wont care anymore. it doesnt matter.

To myself:
im ly-g to myself day by day to be happy. th 1year++ memories are come-g back.
is it a good sign? or a bad omen? idk anymore. i physco-d myself to smile in everything.
but it seem that whatever i do,i get to rmb something we did tgt. :x
anyway,3years alr,time to let go,NO MATTER what.

cross th line.