wake up tdy early! at 7.20am. went down to pass JS paper. l0ls.
then went back home and continue-d slp-g! :D haha.
till 11plus, then went to meet ShereeLaopo at bus913.
meet Bernard outside Boots&Shoes. kfc-d with Sheree,Bernard,Stella&YanHongJie.
went to library to study after that. study-d till 3plus? cox Bernard & Stella no mood le.
jiu go play bball. saw MelvinAllegro. he wear YELLOW shirt,same with Stella! :D
then JS came. he wear PURPLE shirt! COINCIDENCE! l0ls.
play-d bball. then frenchhorn th come. Alan &Daniel came too.
then rain-d. so went to carpark . dribble alil for dnt ideas. haha. my draw-g is really sucky sial.
i drew car,Bernard & Sheree say dont look like. l0ls.
continue-d play-g bball at 5plus. then went to makan at 7pm.
till sometime near 8pm. continue-d play-g bball.
saw Shawn,Lewis,TongLee,KokKiong,Tobias & EVG peeps!
anyway, left at 8plus. cox mum's call jiu go home le. SORRY laopo uhhs!
then at home,nags. haha. i answer-d with "UM , AH, ORH." l0ls.
anyway,gtg .

cross th line.

Today is th last day. th last day for me to think of you.
even if i bump into you in th street,or see you, im only say-g hello.
nothing else. you go your way,i continue with mine. im being heartless.
so goodbye. we'll be good friends from now on. Nothing more.
Goodbye,my 18.09.

It doesnt matter to you whether im with you or not. cox you dont give a single damn.
All it matters to you was whether im there for you when i need you.
im not superman. i cant fly,neither do i have superpowers.
im always there when you need me,but are you there when i need you?!
friggin asshole. i will not contact you anymore.
and to those peepos who know who im refer-g to.
DONT ! DONT ever ask me to take th first step.
cox im sick and tired of hear-g excuses. take-g me for grant-d ! BAH!.
arghhs.

went to school in th morning! like duh. usual .
EMaths was blur-ish for me. SETS! i dint went for remedial due to Band.
so yeap. i spend th time try-g to understand it on my own.
English,went to library. its FREEZE-g there okayr. MassLecture.
SS was okayr,except that im write-g th essay and idk what im do-g.
l0ls. THANKS MARK for TELL-G me what to do. :D
RECESS! went to library to find JoyceBRO. had a small lesson with MrHuang.
then went back class,get bags,jiu go hall. its SBS!
i pester-d Aloysious to draw smt in th hall. l0ls. and i drew-d too. its UGLY!
had ProjectTeach. darn funny sial. :D haha.
went to Movers & Shakers Gallery find Bernard & HeXiang.
did alil of dnt. then went to Bernard's hse and continue.
then went to play bball. haha. i know secret! :D
Lady came with SereneLaopo to play bball. haha.
then JianShen,JiaAn,Jovyn,Melvin,BoZong came. play-d bball!
i play-d till 9plus tdy! haha. Cheer up people! it will be better! :D


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Thats my eraser! got vandalise-d by MarkTanMuZhou! arghs.

Rachel! See your name here?! haha.
anyway,Physics 2period was abore!! i fell aslp dk how many times.

then PE! i play-d bball. haha. then EMaths. cher came in late.
cox she thought it was her recess. and we end up wait-g in class with Mark teach-g .

Addition & Subtraction. Super uber funny lohr. He's draw-g is bad.

apple looks like pear somemore.

then RECESS. back class for Chem. okayr ahr,MrsEng is scary. things happen-d after lesson.

SS! im slpy mode. Mark disturb-d me and i disturb-d back! haha.

jiu AMaths. slp-g mode somemore. then actually got test th,but donthave! mwahahaha!

because of me!! l0ls. gd influence a? haha.

then went to band. okayr luhr. wont talk more.

band end-d 6plus near 7. then i went to band store wait ChuenJye finish so i can go home.

he count-d wrongly!!! haha. made me wait there so long. L0LS!

my fault too uhhs. cox im like talk-g crap to him and made him lose focus. l0ls! :D

bad influence. **QMs are weird people! to SengKiat and ChuenJye! :D

went home then tried doing dnt. i got no IDEAS! ARGHHS.

brain brain. im going insane! :D

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school-d tdy! :D ihateschool. l0ls.
morn-g assembly im dead slpy. then MsLee came,EMaths.
im halfway awake. im halfway aslp. l0ls!
i tried my best to keep myself awake. then Chinese. SBS!
im like,do amaths,then slack. jiu went back class for AMaths.
RECESS! i had headache. l0ls. then went for Chem.
i manage to grab ard 15mins of nap given by MrsEng. :D
then Geog. went to Hall. im like do homework. cox idontwant go home do.
then do do do do. jiu English le. MrEdward dint come for lessons.
so free period. continue-d homework-g. then went to meet YanHongJie w Joyce Bro.
went to 888 to makan. RuiQing came. talk-d to us. yeap.
i went bball-g. i reach-d there havent play 1 match,jiu RAIN! arghhs! l0ls.
then went to carpark. play-d bball in th rain! haha.
anyway,darn funny luhr! l0ls. went home at ard 7plus.
gtg alr. byes.

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im going insane day by day. dont make me go irritate-d.
im doing my utmost best to give everyone a smile alr.
dont force me do things i dislike. just like how you dontwant ppl force you do things you dislike.
put YOU yourself in others ppl's shoes and point of view.
DONT ever take it that you're th only person important.
everyone is. think as a WHOLE not individual.

went to school in th morning. like duh!
i keep memorise-g dnt. but end up NTH goes into my brain.
great! how great! and im prepared to fail Geog & D&T test alr.
yeap. Physics was bored. then D&T horrible. RECESS.
i vomit-d what i ate siol. then jiu went hall. got our Verification slip.
i need pay $370 for my o level papers sial!
then Chinese. i couldnt pay attention. i sms-d,tried memorise-g geog.
and wthell,NTH went in again. ihateTESTS!
then GEOG. i know th answers. but idk how to write it out. l0ls.
went for Band. okayr luhr,my pinkie painful,my toe painful too.
cox im stand-g then must be very careful . :X
anyway,went home after band. gtg le.

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Please,theres a limit to my patience and when my tolerance level is used up,prepare to get tortured by me.
cox i wont be merciful. you waste my time by tell-g me you dontwant care this or that.
i could use those time to finish my homework one okayr.
and please stop those childish acts alr. you dont want th ppl to scold you,dont do it to others.
if you want ppl treat you well,do th same. thats fair. if not,dont even think of it.
and if you keep making your own decisions,im gonna make you make your own decision of choose-g alr.
im piss-d of with you okayr. everyone keep complain-g me to you.
and i know they expect an answer from me. and i have to think a WIN-WIN solution for you and everyone.
so please stop making my life so tough alr.
im alr being polite by say-g please. so do it yeahr. for th sake of everyone.

Yesterday,22February 2009.

went to meet twin at bus stop,i was late. cox godpa's got stroke.

then went to meet Bernard & Sheree. study-d at th library.
went to print-d pictures for d&t. meet JS and his dm,BoZong.
then go to RP for th concert "La Sinfonie d'Amis" .
we was like 10mins late? haha,and havent start yet sial.
okayr lahr,overall not bad. i love th strings from Orchid Park Wind Orchestra! :D

then went to makan at foodcourt with twin,Bernard,Sheree,HeXiang,JS & BoZong.

i ate th slowest. haha. cox im chew-g my food like hell,so diff to swallow!!

went to BoZong house with twin,Bernard,HeXiang &JS. haha.
im insane! i laugh-d like im from Hougang Chalet sial. Laugh non stop! :D

then 9plus,mum call-d got nag-g. haha. then went home. chiong d&t till 1plus this morning.
TODAY,23February2009.

i wasnt late for school! but im darn slpy. haha.
and everyone's very shock-d that i got back my voice.

haha,im like so noisy tdy lohr. keep talk-g and talk-g.

idk why. got th urge to talk! haha,amaths.

OlivineBeauty drop-d amaths. then WenBing sat beside me le. haha.

went for d&t. SBS! almost fell aslp sial . then RECESS!
jiu back class for English. i hate English! wthell. insanity!

Chinese,i tahan th lesson without slp-g sial. pro uhhs? haha.

then home period. im like try-g to do my english hw. but no feel-g.

jiu dint do. then jiu d&t remedial. SBS! i super high at th start- g of th lesson sial.

then at 4plus like that,jiu slpy le. slpt awhile. haha.

went to meet sheree. then went to my hse change slippers.

with JS,Melvin,Jovyn,Daniel,XiaoPing and afew others idk.

play-d awhile nia,then jiu send sheree home. but end up walk-g pasar malam then sheree left.

then melvin went home too. haha. i walk-d home myself . and i hit on smt on my way home.

and end up walk-g home with a bleed-g toe. painful!!

at home,gonna chiong hw le! haha. okayr,gtg le.

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001. Real name - Tan KaiYing
002. Nickname(s)-TanKY
003. Star sign - Leo
004. Male or female -female
005. Elementary -Admiralty Primary!
006. Middle School - Evergreen Secondary!
007. High School -im sec4?
008. Hair color -Black
009. Long or short -BOTH!
010. Loud or Quiet -Depends. :D
011. Sweats or Jeans -Sweats
012. Phone or Camera -Phone.
013. Health freak -Nopes.
014. Drink or Smoke? -Neither.
015. Do you have a crush on someone? - Like who doesnt?
016. Eat or Drink -Both
017. Piercings -Nopes.
018. Tattoos -Nopes.
HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane -Yeap yeap
020. Been in a relationship -Yeap
021. Been in a car accident -Dont curse me!
022. Been in a fist fight -Nopes,im a good girl. :x
FIRSTS:
023. First piercing -Never.
024. First best friend -Give me a time machine & i'll answer back.
025. First award -Pri 6? i got 2nd in class!
026. First crush -it was nong nong ago!
028. First vacation -when im a baby!
LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to - Mum.
030. Last person you texted - Hmms,SECRET!
031. Last person(s) you watched a movie with -dk
032. Last food you ate - Noodles?
033. Last movie you watched -dk
034. Last song you listened to -Over you
035. Last thing you bought - my dinner.
036. Last person you hugged- my mum!
FAVES:
037. Food -Random.
038. Drinks -IceLemonTEA!
039. Clothing -nopes
040. Books - im not a bookworm.
041. Musics -Random
042. Flower - Lavender
043. Colours -Blue,black,white.
044. Movies -None.
045. Positions -what you refer-g?
046. Subjects -EMath,AMath!
IN 2008..... I
047. [ ] Kissed in the snow
048. [ ] celebrated Halloween
049. [ ] had your heart broken
050. [x] went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [ ] someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [ ] came out of the closet
053. [ ] gotten pregnant
054. [ ] had an abortion
055. [x] done something you've regretted
056. [x] broke a promise
057. [x] hid a secret
058. [x] pretended to be happy
059. [x] met someone who changed your life
060. [ ] pretended to be sick
061. [ ] left the country
062. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
063. [x] cried over the silliest thing
064. [ ] ran a mile
065. [ ]went to the beach with your best friend(s)
066. [x] stayed single the whole year
CURRENTLY:
067. Eating - Nth.
068. Drinking -H20
069. I'm about to -Finish th quiz and slp!
070. Listening to - Over You
071. Plans for today - Sleep!
072. Waiting for - time to pass.
YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? - See how.
074. Want to get married? - Maybe?
075. Careers in mind - Engineer!
WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
076. Lips or eyes - Eyes bahr.
077. Shorter or taller? - Taller!
078. Romantic or spontaneous - idk.
079. Nice stomach or nice arms - idk.
080. Sensitive or loud - Sensitive!
081. Hook-up or relationship - Relationship.
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant - Neither
HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts → Nopes
084. Ran away from home → Nopes
085. Hold a gun/knife for self defense → Nopes
086. Killed somebody → Nopes
087. Broken someone's heart → Yeah.
088. Been arrested → Nopes
089. Cried when someone died → Yeah.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself - Nahr.
091. Miracles - Sometimes.
092. Love at first sight - idk?
093. Heaven - Maybe.
094. Santa Claus - NO!
095. Sex on the first date - Eww!
096. Kiss on the first date - Nahr. l0ls.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - Yeah!
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? - Nopes. Bt im content-d .
099. Do you believe in God - Nopes.
100. This is the 100th and last. - Finally! :D

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there! 100 questions of insanity!

back from bball! :D
im dead dead dead tired luhr! arghhs! haha.
yeap,then went to school early this morn-g cox got band.
i saw JianShen,JiaAn,frenchhorn guy &Melvin at my blk downstairs.
they stalk-d me!! l0ls,no lahr. haha. they just rest-g there awhile before gg for band.
then i continue-d to go band. im like early lohr. and i talk-d. with pain.
haha. then band. my pinkie hurts luhr! i press-d th strings darn painful .
arghhs! but bo bian,jiu tahan till sectionals.
MrChan went to look how we practice sial cox th neighbours complain-d about us.
haha. dontcare. made me walk here and there. and MrChan talk-d to me sial.
about band,and ask-d for my class and name. l0ls. scary!
then sectionals was torture-g! my pinkie hurts!!! then combine-d ! worst. haha.
band got dismiss-d. went to makan at 883. usual porridge meal. haha.
then went to Bernard&Stella's hse. did dnt. Thanks all who help-d me cut ALL th pictures. :D
went to play bball after that. with JianShen,frenchhorn guy,& 1more idk th name .
play-d till hand pain nia. haha. :D play-d till like 7plus.
jiu went to 888 makan le. then bus-d home! walk-d home with twintwin! :D
and THANKS TWIN & SIS for th present! :D
gtg le.

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i told you alr,theres a limit in everyone.
you cross it,i wont let you see tmr.
im just emphasise-g on th serious-ness.
and please lahr,stop show-g me attitude.
im do not have a very high tolerance level nowadays okayr.

To my dearest band major cum my jie jie YANHONG ! :D
nahr,you're my idol. able to cope studies and band so well. :D
yeah,im have alot of problems,but im solve-g them one by one.
i broke down before alr. but not in front of you,cox you need me there if you broke down .
you may not as much problems as me,but you have a stronger emotional barrier to face.
thats why you're drown-g. :D but cheer ups uhhs! we can do it!
we can make everything carry on smoothly! and may all our problems solve-d and get more bond-d each time! :D
JIAYOUS to you too! for SYF,O LEVELS and all th things you want to achieve. :D

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im dead tired! yeap. i went to school tdy. like duh!
haha,lessons was bored. i slpt during EMaths,then English,i tried to bt dint make it.
SS was like,darn funny. cox MrZainudin. :D RECESS!
im fedup with someone okayr. yeap,wthell. forget it.
then CCD. dead boring. MrLee talk-d to me,and im like okayr,im voiceless,how do i reply you?
he ask-d me a tough question "when will you gain your voice? " =.=
do you think i will know?!? wthell . :X
then jiu AMaths test. im first to finish! went to Project Teach.
i dint do hw. cox dint turn up last wk. haha.
yeap,lessons is slpy to me. then went to Bernard's hse. did th bunk thingie.
okayr,im pekchek there. :x then took a short nap,jiu go play bball le.
with LADY & Christ! Christ violent sial, make me hurt my lil finger of my left hand.
its like damn painful ! arghhs!
now it looks black-ish to me. not all luhr,just th middle part. :D
ADSS peepos came at 6? near that time. yeah,then we play-d tgt! :D
JianShen is violent tdy . haha,okayr. im being lame here. :D
then yeap,i went home at ard 9plus? yeap,everyone's aslp and im find-g my dinner. l0ls.
yeah,gtg le.

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hate me for all i care alr. i did it as i hold th majorities as main. although minorities also hold a certain level.
but i have to do things carefully. dont think its easy for me.
i maybe smile-g to you but im in pain inside okayr.
dont think i do things with considerations! i do okayr. just that i take a shorter time to think.

dont give me stupid reasons, i got brain to think one.
dont try to lie to me with th same reasons too.
COX IM NOT AN idiot to know that you're avoid-g me.
friends or no friends,i dont care you anymore.

thats during school time.

School tdy is a total BORE! lessons was horrible.
MrClementLee LECTURED us for 20mins with us stand-g.
and i gave th wthell face. :D then jiu PE! im a model student okayr!
i got medical reasons,yet i wear th PE attire and report! :D
spent my PE,sms-g! and 12FEB! :D haha. went to class.
was like,im very tire-d mode. :D jiuRECESS! porridge-d again. arghhs!
l0ls. went to class,then got th Sem Trex thingie! its SBS and very hot.
i keep sms-g and try-g to get myself hydrate-d cox throat dry dry. :D
went to hall after that,i slpt lohr. l0ls. cox very slpy mahr. then back to class,got lecture-d again .
for 15mins? and all because of somebody. im like wtfish! its not that we are selfish,but we dint even realise he is gone,so how you want us to be responsible for?
and went to Stella's hse to wait for peepos and gather tgt . to makan.
after that,went to 888 kfc makan. haha,cool a? i got throat infection yet i eat fried food.
but i drank lots of water okayr! :D im a good patient. haha.
then went to play bball. weather was very HOT!!!
play-d till like 7plus? haha,yeap. and my right hand hurts! and my left foot too! L0LS!
then went home. bath-d,online-d. :D
im so dead tired and got sunburnt! mwahahaha! im reddish! :D
and im voiceless. haha. okayr uhhs,gtg le.
SORRY TO THOSE WHO I DIRECTLY/INDIRECTLY injure you.

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okayr,im piss-d off by some peepos in school. due to some reasons.
and please luhr peepo,i maybe voiceless but that doesnt mean im abnormal.
it just meant that i just temporary cant talk and i'll be fine soon.
and im super uber stress okayr,you guys keep tell-g me abt th camp thing.
im NOT th IN CHARGE! im just th ADVISOR! and i need space too!
school is school,band is band. dont mix-d them both up. and choose a correct time to do it too!
and please luhr,im not superman neither am i superhuman.
i got limits! you cross-d th line,i will torture you like you'll nvr see tmr!

you call-d me. and i dint pick up,you sent me a uber long sms and crap-g its all my fault.
i told you alr,I AM VOICELESS! i cant pick up calls. i can only SMS!
and im super dissappoint-d in you. you DONT TRUST me.
wthell luhr, we've been friends for like 7years?! and you tell me this stuff.
forget it,you are just play-g with our friendship in my point of view.

imiss34thNCO !!!

anyway,went school in th morning. and lessons are total bore! i slpt awhile during emaths. yeap.
and cher dint come,thats why can slp. haha. good student lehr me! :D
then did th homework,was like wthell? is this even maths? then do with Mark and co.
darn funny while doing sial. jiu Chinese le. i slpt again during lesson. slpy mahr,bobian. haha.
went back class for AMaths,im like so quiet lohr. Olivine BEAUTY want-d to ask me smt,but dint.
cox she realise-d i got no voice to answer her,and she's very quiet tdy too! RECESS!
yeap,porridge again. then went to class for Chem. SBS! i fall aslp while during th work cher gave.
then back to class for Geog. im so quiet again. haha. went to Library for English.
hopeless! i slpt again! haha,and MrEdward was like behind me? and i keep slp-g. haha.
then went to class,chiong finish Chem and then went for Cheena Remedial. SBS!
i kept quiet throughout th lessons and i wrote crap for th compo. haha. and i got 18/20 for th 2nd letter writing!:D
went back class for Physic. SBS! MrLee talk-d to me after remedial. and i wrote down what i say. haha.
then he ask me what happen to your voice? Throat infection. You talk abit lehr. talk lahr. *shakes head*
haha,yeah,then went to Gina's jie's hse. slack-d there awhile then went to play bball. haha.
im using sign language to communicate with others. im qi kek! haha. sign language they dont understand! l0ls.
then walk-d to Pasar Malam after that. Sheree bought stuff,th guys bought drinks. then walk-d home with JS.
thats all,gtg le.

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im very very very very very fedup with you. what you want me to do?!
forget it. im real tired abt it. now 3main focus: Band & Studies & Friends.

back from school. im super otw to breakdown .really,i am! :D
i spend my school tdy ,NOT talk-g. i dint talk a single word. i did sign language.
Physics is bore-g! and then d&t,MrSui scare-d me siol. l0ls. he suddenly come and talk to me. :X
then recess! i use-d sign language again. then Chinese. i wasnt listen-g for lessons cox its bore-g. i almost slpt.
jiu went to class for Geog . finish-d th tbk sial! l0ls. yeap. then went for band.
im voice-less! and i end up using paper to convey my msg-es. cool a?
and SORRY HeXiang for th thing uhhs!
band's alright,except i heard some complains again. yeap. then went back for combine-d .
MrLim talk-d to th band. what he said is true, sec4s havent be doing their best so,JIAYOUS sec4s! WE CAN DO IT! :D
then listen-d th sec3s meet-g. im a total failure. HeXiang knows why. im sorry i disrupt-d your meet-g uhhs!
went outside sch. MsTan talk-d to me about my amaths. and she's laugh-g when talk-g to me! l0ls.
she's a understand-g teacher uhhs! i talk-d to her with sign language! :D
and on my way home,i did smt. twin knows why . im gonna breakdown alr!
yeap. anyway,i gtg le. im no mood.
THANKS JS for HELP-G ME SEARCH SOLUTIONS! :D
THANKS ALL FOR CARE & CONCERN! :D

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i may not be a good major,but i tried to be my best.
you may think i settled th thing badly,but this is my way of settle-g.
i did think of consequences before i do anything. if not why do i even need a brain?
yeah,im gonna breakdown soon.

i dint go school tdy ! cox im like voiceless and im weak-ish . l0ls.
then i online-d from 9plus to like 2plus? yeap. haha.
did d&t after i offline-d. till like 5plus? then went to play bball with my siblings.
i can die from teach-g my sister just to shoot okayr! she shoot 1 ball,then laugh 3mins.
somemore lie on th floor,then laugh. th floor darn wet and dirty too. then i play-d ABC with my brother.
he's good uhhs,he almost win me. haha,but i win in th end! cox im better!! :D l0ls.
then i continue-d teach-g my dear lil sis how to shoot. i super pekchek! i teach her for 30mins!
and she still cant get th bball in . im like wthell. then yeap. 6.10pm then go back home.
sis keep grumble-g abt being late for wushu. and i became voice-less. haha.
i end up do-g hand signs to talk to her. :x haha,yeah,continued with d&t.
then i went look-g at hunks at th park ! l0ls! then porridge-d. white porridge is best luhr! nvr made me vomit! :D
haha. okayr ahr,gtg le. byes.

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i saw your blog alr. you wrote "i dont give a hack damn about th friendship we have now..."
okayr,since you're that heartless,i am too then.
if you dont give a damn,then why show me attitude when you're unhappy about me ?
you add up to my stress,you tell me this and that to ponder over and kill-d thousands of my brain cells and waste-d my time.
i could use all this to do something more meaningful things like de-stress-g myself and my homework .
but i sacrifice-d them for you! now you tell me you dont give a hack damn! what kind of logic is this?
tell me straight if you dontwant me to care for you anymore.
i know your problems inside out. your family and all that. kor told me everything,dont blame him.
cox i force-d him to tell me. well,since you dont want me as your friend,im fine with it.
but please remember this,no matter what,i will still be there for you. even if im th last choice in your list.
at least,im remember-d by you . so yeah,let it go and forget us but rmb th memories.

cross th line.

im really fedup alr. stop giving me attitude. im not god.

i cant keep on tolerate-g your nonsense.

mind you,im not fully recover-d yet okayr. i tried my best to smile.

i tried my best to let you guys be happy. i tried to make everyone smile and happy.

i have to do things think-g more than like 3times? before i execute it.

know why ? cox i have to think of th consequences if i do it.
dont tell me im sick cox of stress. cox thats not th only reason.
you are th reason too. i have to tolerate your nonsense when i come back home at meet you guys up.

i know i havent been going out with you all cox of school and band and besties and friends.

but i already tried to make way for you alr. you show me temper,i dont show back.

but that doesnt mean that i am gd to bully. i know what you say about me. dont badmouth peepo man.

if you dont want to have th same thing happen to you.

put yourself in people's shoes lahr dehr! im not god! i dont have clones of me that can help me divide my work.

i have my life,you have yours. i have my o levels this year but you dont.

you been thru what i been thru alr,so cant you just understand me alil ?

anyway,cheer up uhhs. and i have limit to my patience.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! :D

okayr,i dint slp ytd night. haha. cox of some reasons . ^^i dont feel like saying.
anyway,i morning call-d ppl in th morning to wake them up. im a good alarm clock,arent i ? haha.
makan at Macdonald at 768. and i have no appetite to eat. eat 1 burger jiu go le.
then vomit-d in school. haha. red color somemore. its so sudden,i had th urge to vomit,everything out!
haha, not even 1hour yet lohr! wthell. then i vomit-d again after band. 2timess! :D
i rock man! then went to Stella's hse wait for Joycebro with laopo and nv er! :D
then bus-d to CWP. makan at foodcourt. ate lunch..but only afew spoonfuls. cox no appetite. haha.
jiu go vomit it out le. haha. cool right? anyway,tdy is EMOTIONAL day for most peepos in band.
CHEERIOS PEEPOS! things will be better! :D Have faith !
then jiu went to play bball with JiaAn,JianShen &Jovyn. th weather is very hot!!
cant even open my eyes to see th bball. :D play-d till very sian.
cox everyone seem so cold... then things kinda warm up. yeap . then yeap, very funny luhr.
laopo,nv er and Bernard keep saying cold jokes that is darn cold.
and JiaAn ADAGIO sial!! he very slow in react-g th siol. then they left at ard 4plus? dk . dint note.
then play-d a match with da jie. 11-6. :D we won! haha. 6VS1 somemore. then went home at 5plus.
with twintwin! :D then at home,did dnt. im gonna die of doing dnt. :x
haha. i still got cheena hw not done. amath too. die die. sure die.
heng tmr is sunday. :D haha. anyway,gtg le.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY GINA GIRLFRIEND!! :D You're 16!! Older than me sial :x anyway,can watch NC16! :D
arent you excite-d ? Goodluck in everything you do and best wishes to you too! :D

i dint went sch tdy. yeap. cox my fever went up high high high! yah, and i woke up at ard 11.30? around that time.
then went to meet JoyceBro somewhr. then bus-d to CWP. cruise-d ard CWP for stuff. hehe . :D
blah blah blah. went to Seoul Garden to makan and celebrate GIRLFRIEND's bday! :D haha.
darn funny lohr. got alot of pictures also. yeap. then went to play bball.
i vomit-d there. wthell ! im super not well luhr. then play-d bball till very late.
with JianShen and Jovyn and some ex-WRSS peepos. :D i play dao no appetite to makan.
haha,but i manage to get th bowl of porridge in my stomach . then i dint vomit it out! :D
i ton th night sial . with JS, who accompanied me halfway thru. and i continue-d myself. :D
haha. anyway, im gonna post pics! :D

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well,im utterly dissapoint-d in you yeah.

yeap,you gave me a feel-g that im there for you only when you need me .

well,i was quite surprise-d when i recieve-d your msg ytd.
but its about something you need that you need me to find .

not about hows life or what. i was hope-g that our friendship would get better you know ?

i tried my best to do th first step. but my confidence keep crash-g down.

i seriously think that you priority your sec friends than me.

im not jealous, but im just envy and alil dissapoint-d.
cox you said before " i hope our friendship can last long ."
i dint forget and i did want-d our friendship to last long .
but i end up with dissapointments every time. you broke promise-s to me.
you contact me only when i am need-d for your needs.
im darn dissapoint-d with you lohr, treat me like a friend.

not someone that can be use when you need and throw away when you dont need.

forget it, you wont look at my blog anyway.

its useless now. no matter what, i will still be waiting.

for you to realise,i've change-d but for th better and will remain th same if you cherish our friendship.

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im fever-g now. 39.1degrees! Hiong hor ?
anyway, went to school in th morning. with a bad start.
cox i vomit-d at home twice! before i leave for school. then went to school,find Joyce and Stella.
ate a small breakfast,but i end up having pains in my heart and th urge to vomit .
idk why . then lessons was boring. haha. but i was sms-g so not bored. ^^ bad student hor ?
anyway,lessons was boring before recess. and during recess, i vomit-d 2times again.
i vomit-d what i ate during recess sial. wthell,then i end up very hungry . jiu Chemistry.
got Redox test,then MrsEng keep ask-g ChoonHeng to erase th board,cox tdy his bday . :D
then MrsEng ask-d me a question " KaiYing,you seem to be not paying attention in class ,are you sick ?"
and i was like ? uhhs? i tried to pay attention alr. but i keep vomit-g made me INSANE !
then SS,i got back my test! im so darn happy! i got 16/25!!! 3rd in classs!!!! coool hor ? im darn happy!
yeap,then 2nd period of SS,was darn funny too. cox i keep bully-g Mark as he bullied me!! haha.
i sms-g mahr,then he saw th person i was sms-g,then he keep say-g th name. darn lame lohr! l0ls.
then AMaths, im like feel-g warm cox im have-g fever. and i keep tell-g Olivine,very hot lehr very hot! haha.
thanks Olivine for listen-g to my grumbles ! :D
then went for Band, apparently,i became more feverish . and im like look-g PALE and have RED EYES!
THANKS those BAND MEMBERS who ask-d me whether im fine . :D and MrLim ! :D
anyway, i taxi-d home after band. Thanks to twin who help-d me flag a taxi . :D
then i slpt awhile,then my dad took temperature for me . 38++degrees siol . then when i take it again,39.1degrees!
went to th doctor. i got an injection sial on my butt somemore! :x and my butt's numb. l0ls.
then got medicine, and lecture from th doctor. haha. im not gg school tmr!
im super not happy . cox tmr's GIRLFRIEND's birthday sial . :D
and i cant celebrate with her tmr during lessons . :X SORRY GIRLFRIEND ! :D


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im going insane, then i go bonkers, then HOUGANG CHALET ,IM HERE!! :x

went to sch in th morning. had lessons. darn bore-g ! lessons boring. i fell aslp at Physic.
and dnt was funny ? i guess so . Chinese was boring!!! i hate chinese.
but i got 17/20 for my test. and 18/20 for another test. :D
then geog. kinda funny . haha. :D then went for band. im fedup with some people okayr.
forget it. then sectionals is funny!! :D combined's horrible. :x
had a short meeting with th sec3s. then went to pasar malam. then home! :D
im dead slpy luhr. haha. anyway, gtg le.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KENDRICK !! :D my classmate for 3CONSECUTIVE years !
you're 16 alr!! can watch NC16 somemore. :D all th best ! :D
&& HAPPY 3RD MONTH for 34TH NCO !!! :D haha. **im late 2days. :x


anyway,i dint go school tdy . due to medical reasons. :X dont ask me why .
i wont tell you unless you're worth tell-g. :D BUT I DID seen th doctor ! :D
then i stay-d at home till 2plus. went to meet JoyceBro. which is torture-g for me. im like sweat-g my way there and in pain . :x
went to cwp,makan,then meet Lady and Nick go to bball court. play-d bball .
im lag uhhs. haha . then somewhr . went home at ard 7plus? yeap .
anyway,im dead tired alr. tmr i chiong-g homework and catch-g up lessons day! :D
CONCLUDE-G my DAY : im tired,im tired and im tired ! :D

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO STELLA ! can watch NC16 alr lehr! :D
May all your dreams and wishes come true ! JIAYOUS FOR SYF '09 ! :D

i went for band this morn-g! i was early but some were earlier .
had band practice . its fun in th morn-g but afternoon,was horrible .
i broke down . mean-g i cried . in school . 2nd time. and this mean im not strong will-d enough .
i have to work even harder than ever . hais . bless me . thanks JoyceBro,Sheree,Stella,Bernard&YongHaw for cheer-g me up .
Thanks Stella for th lollipop . yeap . went to cwp . makan ,then went to library . then to play bball .
well,i play-d bball from 4pm to like 7plus near 8 ? yeap. play-d with B1&B3,Sheree,Joyce,Twin,Sis,Bernard .
then play-d with JiaAn,JianShen,Jovyn & co. full court . darn funny . and i couldnt get th bball most of th times.
cox JIAN SHEN keep jump high high in front of me . then i cant get bball . :x
but before that smt happen-d,i almost broke down .
but i did drop afew tears and torture-d myself . i bite my own hand,to transfer my heart pain to my hand .
i know it a idiotic way,but thats th way i do . :X yeah,THANKS ALL FOR CONSOL-G ME & NOT allow-g me play bball ! :D
im gonna be fine soon ! i sure will ! anyway,went to makan at KFC . saw ADSS peeps at KFC too . COINCIDENCE !
then went home at near 9pm. im dead tired. i need sleep more than ever and i need medicine .
bless me . :D anyway,gtg alr .
CONCLUDE-G my DAY : im gonna be okayr soon people,so dont worry me so much . :D thanks all for concern !
**JianShen ! See ! Your name lehr ! l0ls .

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thats from NCO !! :D i super miss NCO luhhr! :x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIAAN th BLUR QUEEN and YANHONG JIE !! :D
you both have th same birthday ! :D so HAPPY 16th birthday ! :D
CHEERIOS ! & all th best ! :D

vomit-d afew times before i went school . its a total bore okayr .
lessons was okayr ? iloveENGLISH lesson luhr! cox its by MrEdward ! :D
he wasted 1/3 of th lesson doing th laptop . good right ? l0ls .:D then he said loads of funny stuff .
"Listen to your tution teachers if you have and they gurantee you a FAIL " -9.21am
"You have to use me . You dont have to get someone else to teach you . " -9.21am
"What is destiny ? FATE !One day we will all die,thats fate ! But when ? " -9.23am
"Why did you fail ? Fail lahr! Its destiny ! Anyone who dont take steps to coreect yourself are I D I O T ! " -9.25am
"Is that understood ?" -9.27am , 9.30am
"Learning is to ... speak out any STUPIDITY in your mind " -9.34am
"...... so courageous that you will stand on top of your chair /table " -9.34am
"Sir,your answer is wrong ! says who ? I SIR ! " 9.52am
"Whats th teacher at RI have ? 2extra horns ?" 9.58am
"I see what i tell " * actual "I tell what I see " 10.28am (Alex Ong during SS !)
haha . im very bo liao hor ? l0ls . i went to write down what people says . :D
anyway,assembly was total bore ! and i self-entertain-d myself in th hall . :x
went for Project Teach after that . its okayr ? i guess so . then yeap . play-d bball .
dead tire-g . :x haha . i got ps by people lohr . THANKS MELVIN and SHEREE for acc me . :D
then JiaAn and co. came at 6plus ? then play-d bball ! :D
i got M1 by JianShen lohr!!!! ARGHHS ! l0ls . then play-d till 7plus near 8pm .
i laugh-d till my stomach pain siol ! :D then went 888. buy water . bus-d 913 home.
saw twin twin ! sis ! and sis's sis ! :x bus-d home. i saw 1 of my pri sch classmate !
i forget his name . :s should be Brandon bahr ? dk ? HE'S tall !!! :x
went home . i vomit-d again . like arghhs . :x haha. gtg alr .
CONCLUDE-G my day : I HAD FUN but im tired and i feel like vomit-g .

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im SUPER miss NCO !! th above picture is with DEYI sec majors ! :D


school was tire-g. and im feel-g super not well . yeap . idk why .
i vomit-d in school THRICE ! can you actually imagine ?! :D
tests was horrible cox i had headache and th feel to vomit almost everytime . THANKS IVAN for th PANADOL ! :D
arghhs ! hais. anyway,lessons alright bahr .
went to makan with JoyceBro and Khairul at 888. yeap guy wasnt there. l0ls .
then went to play bball . i have no feel to play sial . yeap.
bro knows why . hais. bless. anyway,gtg alr .
Conclud-g my day : I swear-d i will not go down if he's there,even if he is,i will take it he's invisible .

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thats my grandparents during CNY '09! :D
anyway,went to school in th morn-g. im dead dead dead dead dead tire-d luhr!
had assembly,emaths,chinese,amaths,recess,chem,geog and then English ! haha .
English is th only class that i can hear th fans turn-g, SILENCE in short .
haha . MrEdward talk-d about th "Titanic " Comprehension . i think im fail-g it again.
anyway, went for Chinese Remedial at 3PM . i was alil late,but alot was late too .
and its a total waste of time okayr ! we just did a compo of letter writ-g.
then went to play bball . yeap,dint get to play much cox it rain . yeap .
anyway,went home early. did homeworks. but i still got alot more. hais. bless me . :x
i got 3tests tmr !!! and im prepare-d for 2 out of 3 only !! poor me . anyway,gtg .
CONCLUD-g my day : I MUST MUST learn to LOVE SCIENCE from tdy onwards ! :D

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To you*you will know if its you:
idk you anymore. idk how much i mean to you. Whenever i see you,its like looking at a stranger. idk why. When we go out tgt,we seem damn close. When we're not,we are so damn distant. So tell me,my friend, are you treating me as a friend too? And so what if i understand you? You dontknow how to weigh your priorities even! You find me only when you need a problem solver. Yea,so what do i mean to you sial! So what if i know,understand you? I thought friends have MUTUAL understanding? But after saying all this shit,i guess you still dontknow what im saying bahr. Anyway,whats done has done. whats past has past. All i wish for now is you last long with your stead bahr. im not probing into your problems anymore. unless you need me. Cox i aint that heartless. We are friends for 8years alr and counting. i hope. Prove to me that im wrong if you think so. Dont tell me this and that and tell your friends another stuff. I told you alr. I dontlike lies. I rather be hurt by truth than to be protected by lies.

suddenly,i miss 34th NCO after look-g at th picture man ! :D
yeap,hais. Memories are so sweaty :D
anyway,went to school tdy ,and im super high ? i guess so . :D
Ms Tan postpone-d AMaths TEST ! was like PHEW ! :D cox im not really confident for th test now .
then D&T is SBS ! yeap. i suck at D&T luhhr! :X then RECESS .
back to class for English. i fell aslp like more than 3times ? haha. MrEdward's talk =LULLABY ! :D
then Chinese. i realise-d i dint hand in a total of 2compo,1set of holiday homework .
and th teacher knows,i think . :x dontcare. im try-g to chiong it out by this week. so yeap .
went back class for CCD. SBS SBS SBS !!! yeap,then went to find HuiJing,thought got D&T remedial .
but end up ? DONT HAVE ! WASTE MY TIME . so went ard th school with YongHong to find MrJeffreySui !
but with NO NONE NOTHING luck,we COULDNT find him . RIT .!
fish ! then went for band . yeap,its kinda bore-d. i high-d with th mic and th player . :D
went off at 5pm. bus-d to cwp with JoyceBro &Sheree wife did some shop-g. and return-d library books . went to bball .
wow . darn funny . haha . anyway,gtg le.
conclud-g my day tdy : I HATE D&T but i'll learn to LOVE D&T from now on !! :D

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to whoever may this concern :
idk what to tell you . but can you at least understand people ?
or even THINK before you actually TALK or you actually hurt someone with your words ?
i put it bluntly alr . so yeap,take my advice or whatsoever it mean to you .
you got your friends,i got mine ,you go your way,i go mine .
so dont try to fake over friendship unless you want it to end NOW.